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    People make it so impossible to feel comfortable talking to them, I feel like the only person who will ever be able to fully understand me is my best friend. I don’t know where I would be without her, years down the line and Brittany is the one girl I will cry with every time I see about all the things I never got to cry about when she wasn’t here or even some things I never really knew bothered me until we’re drunk. It’s almost ridiculous, we can never help but sob about how much we love eachother. I would do anything for her, and so often I wake up wishing I was back home with her. She’s the only one that will sit and listen, not just listen like blah blah but actually intently listen with intentions of making me feel like everything is going to be okay. I guess she’s my sense of safety, strange to think I’ve never been so emotionally involved with a friend, it’s almost as if she’s my soulmate in another perspective. I love you so much Brittany Tipton, and even though you’re not home here and I’m not home there; there isn’t a thing in the world I wouldn’t do to make you happy or smile. Whatever you need I’ll always be willing to give. 

    I wish some people understood the quality of our friendship when we’re together, I wish more people had friends like this and I wish I had my best friend more often. Shit’s rough when you’re home and you’re all alone and dying for someone to just let you cry and talk and actually have something to say because we all know sometimes life just isn’t too easy when you feel like no one is listening.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    I am so happy, everything isn’t perfect but damn is it good. Feels good to have myself together again. 

    One of my biggest weaknesses will always be my bad habit of taking romantic movies too personally.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    I am getting dozens of messages right now

    If I don’t get a chance to respond to you all I’ll make sure to as soon as possible.

    I’d like to thank you all so much, those of you who are new and just jumping into this journey with me, and those of you who have watched me grow and progress into what I can now truly say an exceptional human being.

    I am undeniably blessed to have so many of you care about me as passionately as you do. It’s reassuring and it makes those days where positivity seems to run dull feel a hundred times better.

    I care about you all so much, and although as we all know I’m not the best at keeping in touch nor socializing often, don’t you ever forget that I love each and every single one of you. I send you all my love and appreciation. Remember every morning is a new chance to smile, even if your nights are full of frowns. Remember to appreciate the little things, and for once give the positive things the credit they deserve, it’s too easy to be negative. Enjoy the life you are given, embrace everyday and open your eyes. The world is only beautiful if you let it be.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    Anonymous asked:
    being OBSESSED with weed doesn't make you a stoner because it makes it so obvious that it's just a phase.... just smoke like it's no big deal, word of advice

    I smoke more than you and all your friends combined, for free. I love marijuana, its a beautiful thing and if you ain’t wit it get dha fuck outta this bitch


    I’m probably the only stoner in the world that can’t do smoke tricks </3

    Anonymous asked:
    i remember back when you were a modest sweet girl, now you think you are some hot tumblr famous hipster. sucks you changed, oh well

    I remember that to, I also remember making all my mistakes, depending on alcohol and shitty friends back then as well. The ‘sweetness’ you think you saw in me was only weakness. I don’t even really post pictures of myself or talk to anyone on here to leave you under the impression that I’m in any way pretentious. I’m honest, and I’m strong, maybe you’re just not used to people being able to hold their own or carry themselves in such a positive yet carefree manner. So instead of making it seem like I’ve changed in such a terrible way maybe you should be taking notes.

    The changes are positive, and so is my mind. I am proud of exactly who I am today. 


    It actually makes me really upset

    to see girls posting things about how every one else in the world is prettier than them, or how they’re not skinny enough, or don’t have this or don’t have that. Why in the world would you feed into such disgusting negativity; If you don’t give yourself the credit, how do you expect to ever feel good? People underestimate the power of a positive mind, if you talk down to yourself it’s like giving yourself a lethal injection and expecting not to die. Just stop, please for the sake of me not having to see you girls treat yourselves less than you deserve and disappointing me everyday, just stop talking down to yourselves. 

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    You know what, fuck it. Sometimes you just can’t make everyone happy, I’ve learned to accept it and if what I give doesn’t please you then find what does. I’m too fucking strong minded for that shit, love it or leave. Simple.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    Sometimes I can’t help but find myself pondering around in my thoughts, picking out all the sad things around me and just drowning myself in sorrow. I’m not really sad anymore, troubled I guess you could call it. But things can become so stressful so quickly and I feel like I almost loose myself again, and all my progress slips right through my fingers. I sit in my room alone and uncomforted, and I just cry. Sometimes it’s not even about anything in specific just all the pressure I let build up in me and pushed to the back of my head. But I remind myself that I am only human, I’m not expected to be happy all the time or never worried or stressed or even so much as make a mistake. I’m not perfect, and the pain only prepares me for the worst and reminds me to appreciate all the good things in my life. After all; I am blessed for all my loved ones, my enemies, and even the obstacles I have faced in such a short life time and the ones to come in the future. Life goes on, and everyday is a new chance to smile.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    I’m sorry I’ve been so absent from Tumblr recently, I’ve been out and about. School is going great, I’m so happy with the way things are unfolding. After years of thinking I would never get over grieving, I finally have. I am now a positive thinker and a happy person, I take one step at a time and try my best everyday. For all my followers who have been around since the beginning and watched me completely change and progress over the years, thank you. Just for listening and putting up with me. I am finally stable and satisfied, I’m making better and more reliable relationships with the people around me, not to mention me and my mom are getting along really well. I have good company, and I seem to find myself wanting affection more which is strange but I can dig it.. welp pretty much that’s where my life is at right now. And I couldn’t ask for things to be any better and I did it all with just a little bit of positive thinking and a better state of mind.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)

    Anonymous asked:
    are you okay? your posts always seem so sad

    No! No! No! My posts aren’t meant to be pessimistic or a downer in any way. They’re just a way to remind myself that I recognize a problem, this way I can’t avoid the fact that I new there was a problem all along. I love just typing out my feelings, no matter where or to who I just like to express myself. My posts are my way of staying positive and reassuring myself that I know I am making progress.


    Anonymous asked:
    why do you think it's so hard for you to find someone to make you happy?

    It’s not that it’s difficult for me to find someone who will make me happy, a lot of people make me happy. I guess I just look for that connection that just makes me insane, not in a bad way of course. The kind of insane that just drives me crazy thinking about a person, I need that. I need to want someone so bad I don’t think about anyone else. I’m picky, I suppose some people call it but I just want the full experience with nothing lacking. Passion is so key to me.

    Also, it’s hard to find someone who is serious about relationships. Some people don’t even notice how immature they act in a relationship, I just can’t do that little kid shit. I’m so young, but fuck my soul is so old and I want to be with someone I can see myself marrying not dating for a few meaningless months. That’s just fuckin’ stupid. I want love, not lust.


    Sometimes I get so overwhelmed and don’t even notice, I get frustrated and irritated because I can’t find something or just something isn’t right and freak out. I let my mind get to me more than anyone ever could, it’s insane how much damage a person can do on themselves even when no one else seems to even so much as hurt my feelings. Every day I work on myself a little more, I try to correct my faults and apologize when necessary. I realize I don’t always act the way I should, I shut people out and I just want to be alone and that’s just not always the answer. I want people to know I care about them, I want them to know I am grateful for them and I appreciate everything they’ve done for me. I’m sorry if I’m just a little bit of a mess, but hey what can I say. It is what it is and every day I grow and mature as a human being. Life goes on.

    (Source: ineedyouhopeless-)